need an update?

well then, i guess you can have a short one before i run to class. that last week that i wrote about...well, ronnie didn't come that monday and tuesday because it worked out best for both of us that he didn't. but he did come that weekend and we had an awesome weekend together! my best friend lindsey is mucho preggo and her shower was this past weekend so i went home for that. it was pretty awesome. then sunday i went to the biltmore house with nan, pop, and harley for free :) we only had to pay $10 for harley's ticket. unfortunately, ronnie had to work this past weekend and i didn't get to see him but for about a total of 15 minutes all darn weekend. he did get to come over thursday when i got home, but that seems far away now and i miss him! lol. i think he's coming up this weekend though to help me get ready for the fundraiser i am spearheading on monday for the ccf south africa trip. and to spend some much needed time together. it seems that we can never get enough time together :-/ hopefully that will change one day! anyway, i'm still asleep and it's 14 minutes until i go to class HA. and i need to eat my cereal. so i guess i'm gonna bounce for now, but know that hopefully my writers block is over and that i am now pondering on God's mercy, so perhaps that will result in a later blog :) luvz, -r.

oh mud.

i guess i'm just in a muddy mood. kinda looking for something to do...kinda thinking i have 100 things to do. gosh. i don't want to go back to school so bad b/c i have so many darn things to do and none of them are fun. spring break has messed with my head. i may need some serious help after i get back to school from being here lol. b/w my crazy hectic family and the dynamics of this house and the ppl that surround me when i'm home (even friends), i'm going looney! haha. and the sad thing is i had really planned to spend some time with Grammie, but she was so sick and she didn't want me over there. so i'm going over there tomorrow for a little bit and then i'll be heading back to boone tomorrow evening. that'll give me a chance to clean up, etc before ronnie prolly gets there on monday. idk what we'll do b/c i have stuff i actually HAVE to do lol, but i guess he's coming anyway. i feel like a week by myself might be really good, but at the same time idk. so...ronnie will be there mon and tues and then leave wed. morning. which gives me wednesday to write my paper for thursday and maybe get a few other things done...maybe. then on friday, lindsey wants to come up and have lunch and hang out (poor super-preggo girl! lol) everywhere we go i know i'll have to be knowledgeable about bathroom locations! haha i love her tho and if she wants to come i'll carry a bathroom around with me (well, if i could). and then sat and sun i think ronnie is coming BACK up. so it'll be a lot of time spent with ppl i love. and the next weekend i'll be home to go to the dr, go to lindsey's baby shower, and prolly/hopefully to the biltmore house with nan, pop, and harley. sometimes i truly wished my life weren't so planned. i wish i could just go where the wind blows and not stress so much! geez. but it appears as of now, that my life is planned for the next year and half. then after that there are NO plans which in a way, is kind of scarier! haha. wow...i have a lot more to say than i thought. i guess i'm just trying to get my thoughts straight. so good luck figuring this out cuz i'm not proof-readin! night! -r.

skidaddle

(left: see? delyla's been stealing mommie's blankie since she was a tiny little baby!)

no deep theoretical thoughts this time (i don't think). just a preface :) just thought i'd say how much i hate that spring break is almost over. i haven't done anything really, but the week has just flown by! well...i mean, i've done things, but not like, gone to the beach or anything. i've had a few great days with my sweetheart (bowling, movies, hanging out at his house movie, "shopping") lol. and i had a few great days with family and friends (warehouse sale today with nan, taking lindsey's baby-belly pics the other day, the day i spent with tiff), all very wonderful. and i am so very sad to see my break ending! man...i can't stand to go back to school now to write those 5 or 7 papers i have left (who really counts after 5 anyway)?!

the thought just kills me. and now i think i'm about to add another nail to my coffin and try to get into second semester summer school b/c i think i have to history 1101 over again b/c it didn't transfer from GWU. so i'd rather take it in a month than for a whole semester lol b/c i LOATHE history. and i'm sure i'll take another class too but i'm not sure what just yet. anything to make my loads lighter and still graduate semi-on time. i don't even know where i am at in my 4-year plan at this point! HA!

oh, and i have realized something great-i have all the clothes i could possibly need for now. i am sure that i need a few tops to match some of my skirts, but other than that i am set from now till the end of summer! YAY! i think i might celebrate, but then again, maybe i should be mourning lol, because i won't get to shop much more. i could use a new bathing suit, but i'm holding out b/c i'm praying to go a size smaller this year (well, not really, but i would like the same size to look better, how's that)? and oh, i'm so happy my dear little delyla has her own "blankie"-i have been freezing the past few night because she likes to steal mommies blankie. lol...we got her one today for $5. it feels just like mine except that it's more her size (since mine is a double). *relief!* haha.

well, i guess that's all my random comments for tonight-my hands are starting to cramp (esp. my right one) from bowling yesterday! lol...i am SO out of shape! goodnight all! -r.

something new

so it seems that recently i've hit a writer's block with nothing to talk about. but somehow music always inspires me. i mean, not that i haven't been inspired...just haven't had a lot to say...still don't. lol. just want to write! so i just got back to boone today from being at home in lincolnton where we have not had power since 6pm yesterday. it was nice to have a hot shower and heat. but somehow i'm still cold. and i'm achey. my body is just creaking under all this coldness. i am seriously praying we dont have an 8am classes or 9. that'd be really nice. okay...so i'm really not inspired apparently. i've really been wanting to get my dreams out, but it just seems like such a long blog that i've been avoiding it. i mean, they're pretty simple once they're down on paper like, "why don't you just do that Randi?!" geez...but to actually dream about them and wish they were true...that's different. when i do that, they seem grandiose and wonderful. they seem like bright colors and rainbows on a cloudy day. i mean, just the thought of running away to New York!!! wow...no matter what i did or where i lived (as long as it's not a box or something), it seems like it'd just be wonderful. to be so far away...on my own...or with Ronnie...it just seems like a crazy dream. i could never leave my family. i love them too much. i know they'd all be terrified, and i wouldn't be! that's the thing! i can't ride a roller coaster, but the idea of moving to new york thrills me to death! oh my. i do face a dilemma. i know you all probably get tired of hearing about my wishes. i just can't ever get it to come out as wonderful as it seems in my head. *frustrated, randi walks out...*